Archive for September 6, 2011

Rainfall

There was rain today.

I saw it on the way in to the tents as I was ushered in, with people trying to hold umbrellas over my head to keep the moisture out; it wouldn’t do much good. The entire world seemed muggy and hazy this afternoon. Was would not be the correct word, though, because it is still raining, even now. I cannot see it falling, from my position in the backstage area, but I can hear it, and I can still smell it. The smell of sweets and spices from the surrounding marketplaces have been drowned out by that of warm, wet earth and fresh water as it falls from the sky. I can still hear people’s reaction to it as well. Workers are running in and out of the area outside of my door, yelling directions and orders at one another. Grab the line, don’t let the costumes get wet. Move this over a few feet, what in the Goddess’ name are you doing? On and on bark the calls, echoing down the halls to where I am now. Cast and crew alike are left wondering when the rain will let up.

Wondering if the rain will ever let up.

There is supposed to be a show today, but I’m not entirely certain that people will come now that the weather has gotten bad. No one is.

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Things That Motivate Me

  • Having a house
  • Braces
  • Being able to contribute to college educations for my nieces
  • Pride in the abilities of my siblings and trying to set a good example for them
  • Paying my car off
I’ve found that having more material goals and aspirations has helped me out a lot, ironic as it sounds. I did not value money, so I didn’t really understand the value of it. I’d just keep on keeping on at customer service jobs, because I was happy. I didn’t really ever stop to think about how much my expertise in the field and my skills were worth. Hell, I didn’t even know that my writing was worth anything. But through a bunch of things coming together in recent years (one of which admittedly is my relationships with my motivated, educated, and success driven boyfriends of Christmases past and present), I have gotten used to realizing that my abilities have the potential for monetization.
Those things that I do really well? Well, they’re actually worth a lot. And for once in my life, I am acting like it.

Random Learnings/Motivating the Self

Lord, I just read one of the most encouraging things ever about blogging, writing, and content creation. Just gotta stay focused, keep creating. I can do this. I try to write a blog post to my personal blog every day, just to say that I’ve done something. And I write a few things for Textbroker when there’s something I can piece together. Maybe I’ll go back to doing art history pieces. I really want to talk to my professor again, but some things happened last semester.

Oh school. I have so many dirty, horrid four plus letter words I want to call you. But I won’t. I’ll just stay focused on keeping focused. And getting things done. I think that’s part of why I like Google+ so much, actually; it keeps me writing and creating. It’s like I’m blogging like I used to.