Yet Tearyne Is Ambitious…

After my weekend of definitely not sticking to clean eating and doing very minimal exercise, I realized that I forgot to link this video.



I’ve been trying to work on putting stability back into my life (aka THROWING OUT OLD PAPERS. =/), but I did buy a bosu ball and a pilates mat! =] So that I can practice the things that I’m learning in class.

Took some damage today, emotionally. Instead of studying for my exam, I’m busy cleaning my apartment and building it into a kind of cocoon. Means I won’t be fuddling with facebook and will only be logging journal entries. I decided yesterday that I’m a butterfly (metaphorically) that never got the experience of being a caterpillar. Decided I’m going to try to figure out on what I missed out of during metamorphosis.

Whenever I feel upset by something, I tend to withdraw into myself, sometimes even blaming myself. I tend to take the blame on myself and assume that something’s wrong with me, even when I know (consciously) that there isn’t. Hopefully it doesn’t last too long, but I plan on spending every spare hour in the gym or working on something to perfect myself. Right now I’m obsessing over flaws. Counterproductive a little, maybe. I don’t know.

In fitness related details, I got new shoes (I’ll take pics of them) for the gym and for running, and I got two new tops that I look awesome in. I still need to pick a Halloween costume and shoot the Tearyne in a Swimsuit video for this month, though I honestly think it’s more fun to do “Tearyne in her Halloween Costume”, what with it being October and all. What do you think?

Took some damage today, emotionally. Instead of studying for my exam, I’m busy cleaning my apartment and building it into a kind of cocoon. Means I won’t be fuddling with facebook and will only be logging journal entries. I decided yesterday that I’m a butterfly (metaphorically) that never got the experience of being a caterpillar. Decided I’m going to try to figure out on what I missed out of during metamorphosis.

Whenever I feel upset by something, I tend to withdraw into myself, sometimes even blaming myself. I tend to take the blame on myself and assume that something’s wrong with me, even when I know (consciously) that there isn’t. Hopefully it doesn’t last too long, but I plan on spending every spare hour in the gym or working on something to perfect myself. Right now I’m obsessing over flaws. Counterproductive a little, maybe. I don’t know.

In fitness related details, I got new shoes (I’ll take pics of them) for the gym and for running, and I got two new tops that I look awesome in. I still need to pick a Halloween costume and shoot the Tearyne in a Swimsuit video for this month, though I honestly think it’s more fun to do “Tearyne in her Halloween Costume”, what with it being October and all. What do you think?

My body is hating me. I worked my abs last week, and today in pilates class they bit the dust. It’s still really painful to move them or flex them… Well, not so much right now. They felt a bit better/not so crappy. I did 10 minutes of really intense cardio — probably should have just stuck to 20 minutes of light cardio for the purpose of burning fat, but I wanted to push myself — and I worked my glutes, hamstrings, and calves, then my quads and laterals and some more stuff in my shoulders. I’m leaving the abs alone, especially because I might be doing some pilates catchup between now and Wednesday.

I’m proud of myself. I did four sets of some of the workouts. Had a decent lunch, save the fact that it had two tamales (they were small, serious, and beef at least). Had it with a giganto salad with salsa on top. Omnom spinach. =] Snuck in a brownie, but also had two pudding cups. =/ My sweet tooth is killing me… Why am I having all these sweet cravings?

I’m at the gym’s computer lab, btw, in case you’re curious.

Got a lot of Other Parts of Real Life stuff done for college. Proud of myself there, too. Hopefully all that finishes out.

Also, I painted my nails alternating colors of hot pink and lime green and it’s adorable. =] Just like me.

Will be looking for exercises to do tomorrow that will work out my core. Likely pilates. God do I hate pilates right now. I love them so much, but I hate, hate, hate the way my abs feel after them.

My body is hating me. I worked my abs last week, and today in pilates class they bit the dust. It’s still really painful to move them or flex them… Well, not so much right now. They felt a bit better/not so crappy. I did 10 minutes of really intense cardio — probably should have just stuck to 20 minutes of light cardio for the purpose of burning fat, but I wanted to push myself — and I worked my glutes, hamstrings, and calves, then my quads and laterals and some more stuff in my shoulders. I’m leaving the abs alone, especially because I might be doing some pilates catchup between now and Wednesday.

I’m proud of myself. I did four sets of some of the workouts. Had a decent lunch, save the fact that it had two tamales (they were small, serious, and beef at least). Had it with a giganto salad with salsa on top. Omnom spinach. =] Snuck in a brownie, but also had two pudding cups. =/ My sweet tooth is killing me… Why am I having all these sweet cravings?

I’m at the gym’s computer lab, btw, in case you’re curious.

Got a lot of Other Parts of Real Life stuff done for college. Proud of myself there, too. Hopefully all that finishes out.

Also, I painted my nails alternating colors of hot pink and lime green and it’s adorable. =] Just like me.

Will be looking for exercises to do tomorrow that will work out my core. Likely pilates. God do I hate pilates right now. I love them so much, but I hate, hate, hate the way my abs feel after them.

is crashing my willpower. I work at a catering facility, and I tend to eat all the yummy things I see. The catering facility is connected to the cafeteria, and they have awesome food sometimes, too, though RARELY anything really healthy, which annoys the bejeesus out of me.

I’m going to have to up my willpower. I can’t destroy the progress I’ve made. You guys help me stay strong.

is crashing my willpower. I work at a catering facility, and I tend to eat all the yummy things I see. The catering facility is connected to the cafeteria, and they have awesome food sometimes, too, though RARELY anything really healthy, which annoys the bejeesus out of me.

I’m going to have to up my willpower. I can’t destroy the progress I’ve made. You guys help me stay strong.

I’m going to try my hand at making all the meals listed on my meal chart on Sunday and then picking and choosing them out of the fridge throughout the week (save the cereals, oatmeals, etc.). Should be an interesting experiment.

Yesterday was my rest day. I was going to work out today, too, but I realized I have to work at 3.

Last night I had shrimp egg foo young, which is DEFINITELY not in my plan. I had to make up something to a friend, though, so I bought them dinner and ate with them. Necessary (and delicious) evil. I adjusted accordingly, at least.

My video editor sucks, by the by. I’ve been trying to save/export my video all morning, after I got done editing it, and it refuses to. It’s really frustrating for me. I want to put the video up now.

Alicia Marie, my favorite fitness model, is now following me on Twitter and requested to add me as her Facebook friend. Needless to say, I was floored and am honored.

Took the dog to get a flea collar today after her third bath for the week. Hope it helps; the poor thing looks miserable.

Gym tonight, hopefully. Will be working on chest and arms, likely.

I’m going to try my hand at making all the meals listed on my meal chart on Sunday and then picking and choosing them out of the fridge throughout the week (save the cereals, oatmeals, etc.). Should be an interesting experiment.