Yet Tearyne Is Ambitious…

Hi everyone! I’m in Ohio right now, spending the rest of the year with my loved ones (they still live up North). It’s nice, because while I’m here, I have relatively little to worry and wonder about. I don’t have to cook or clean (and you guys know how much I hate cleaning), and I can just sit back and relax… and think. I am currently trying to think up my plans for myself in the coming years. I am no longer just a planner, though; I’m a do-er.

Everyone knows that with the new year comes New Year’s resoultions, and they always include things like lose weight, save money, get organized. These things are on my list, of course, but they’re also deeper. I don’t make New Years resolutions lightly; I make them to resolve issues. After I’ve resolved those issues, I maintain that resolve to hold them tight. I’m trying to sort out the good stuff from the junk, and to figure out just what I’m going to do with my new business venture, Kaali Billi Innovations. I’m trying to keep oil separate from water, because I keep catching myself trying to mix the two of them together. For instance, I am going to devote more time to being a freelance writer and artist; the freelance writing has nothing to do with the vision that I have for KBI to be a mind, body, and soul enriching business, though, so I have to keep reminding myself that when I form my business plan, that won’t be apart of it.

Right now I’m keeping everything sorted in Notepad, which is a nice, non-distracting little program; I use it more and more to write my articles that I am working on for the various sites that I work for – either that, or Wordpad. I don’t need a bunch of fancy formatting for most of these, so it works out very well for me. I am thinking about switching to Google Documents, for a more central, always available place to keep my files and have them always available to me. I’ll look into that more in-depth, but that is also something that I’ve dabbled in and experienced pretty good success with.

One other thing that I’m having to battle is keeping my dreams separate from my ambitions. I fell in love with art history again, thanks to Professor Ingleright-Telgenhoff, and I have to remember that right now, that doesn’t have a place in my life. Next semester I’m going to be focusing on beginning and finishing my AAS in Dietetic Science so that I can become a dietetic technician because that is where my passion deeply lies. I’m pretty sure that if I transfer my university credits over, I can knock out the degree in a very short amount of time. Once I do that, I’ll be able to have some real, solid cash flow coming in, from a career field that has some demand, being that it is related to the health sciences, and I will be able to start forming stability in my life.

Once I have the money to pay for the rest of my Uni degree and the art history degree that I’ve been pining over, I’ll do those, but no more student loans for me at this point in my life. I’ll either have the money to pay for my degree, tuition, books, and fees (grants is included in here) or I won’t. Simple as that.

I think that this entry is done for now. The SEO thing is going to kill me for not making this more precise and marketable and all that jazz, but I can deal with that for now. Later gators.

Stability was the name of a post I intended to finish, which stated that in September I was declaring that I was striving to seek stability in my day to day life. Yesterday, I got confronted by my boss at my job, because one of my coworkers saw that I had made a very civil, adult complaint about how she was doing the scheduling — scheduling which has caused me much instability, and paired with her bully personality was inflexible. If you came to her trying to explain that the shift that she put you on at 3PM today for 9 AM in the morning the next day – a day that you had planned off – she would simply shrug and say, “Find someone to cover your shift”. She has a pretty ruthless reputation for this, and I was warned before I started and at the beginning by fellow coworkers that she was like this. Just recently she’s begun hiring outside staff to try to fill the gap, but typically she’d tell you either to find someone to cover your shift, or that you’d have to work it yourself.

I do not apologize for the comments that I wrote on facebook, because they were in no way defamatory. The coworker who took my comments in to her, Matthew, has been there for awhile and I suspect just wanted brownie points because I had said that this was the second time I’d talked to her about this, that I had documentation, and that if it occurred again I would speak to her boss because she was simply not listening.

That guy is an asshole. But we’re moving on from that. I don’t have time for kiss-ups that want to play games at work.

The point of this is, the job is a major source of instability for me. I had planned a few Thursdays ago to do my research paper one night, but on the Wednesday before that, I found suddenly that I was scheduled to work that Thursday night, when I was planning to turn the paper in. When I am thrown off from a pattern or routine or plans, I don’t do very well; I have yet to learn how to cope with this. Right now, I am fretting the 15 pages that I’ve under-researched for and still have to write, paired with an 8 page incomplete assignment from last semester and a final exam. I am horrible at time management, and when things like yesterday and that last time occur, I simply have a hard time getting things back together. Yesterday’s session with my boss included her talking about rumors that I did this thing wrong, that thing wrong, that I wasn’t good enough, etc…. Yet I didn’t get written up, nor was I released. I have my suspicions as to why I was released, but after countless questioning as to “what we should do to change this situation”, I asked her:

“You and the team seem to be alright with the policies for work schedules that you have, and you don’t seem to think that I am a capable worker. My question is, why don’t you just let me go, if I am that bad of a worker?”

She said that there were good things about me, too, but then when I asked her what good things there were, she claimed that she couldn’t pinpoint it because she’d never worked with me – which makes me wonder why she could confirm the rumors that I wasn’t a hard worker, that I didn’t put my all into the events I worked, and that I didn’t seem to care about my work when my clients and other people that I work with seem to think the opposite.

Point blank, Matthew is still an asshole for this whole ordeal. I spent the rest of the afternoon reeling and seething mad, especially because Matthew lied and said that I argued with a client – something I have NEVER done and never will do.

The summation, however, is this: this job promotes a lot of instability in my life, both time-wise and emotionally. I don’t have time for people who like to bully others in the background but wear halos in the foreground, claiming that it’s good management or character building, or whatever. I am supposed to be focused on making myself happy and stable. On the money front, there have been spans of two week periods where I have not even gotten one shift, and that is unacceptable for my financial situation. I need a job where I am guaranteed work without the hassle that this job has given me, so as soon as is viable, I am seeking a position which can guarantee me at least 30 hours a week with a semi-regular schedule.

I care about and love MYSELF, as a person and a student. I will not let a JOB that won’t lead to a career wreck my future.

Alright, you guys know how I love to save money and things like that. I’m a member of a couple survey groups, and I got $20 in Amazon gift certificates this last month. Paired that with Amazon’s 4-for-3 offer, and I just got a Hindi Alphabet, Grammar, and Vocabulary workbook set, plus a Hindi phrasebook for 9.97. Original price: 38.92. Baller!

Love me.

Working on separating the blogs right now, so hopefully, come the new year, when you come to this page it will be completely different. You’ll be able to navigate to my food, writing, art, and health and fitness blogs separately. I’m liking this plan of action. A lot.

I’ve got an exam to finish writing up today, as well as two papers between now and tomorrow. There’s some articles that I read that I want to link to, so we’ll see how that goes. WOO!

This blog is too general. I need to separate myself out into different selves. Especially with the blog. Bleugh. It’s making it so that this is a journal of all the things that I think (which I do need), but it makes it hard for people to target me for opportunities, marketing, etc.

So. In short, before I get whisked off to work:

One of the local community colleges has offered me a grant in excess of my tuition and fees for that school. Instead of going overboard and taking 22 credit hours at my University, I’m going to go to the community college and finish off my basic courses.

A big deciding factor in all of this is that I will be 24 this summer. Because of that, I will finally, finally, FINALLY be eligible for independent student status! I won’t have to rely on my parents’ financial information anymore, and that means that the university should be offering me many more grants, scholarships and – though I hope not to have to take them out – loans. This year I was supposed to receive free tuition, but due to the fact that I was placed on academic progress probation, I lost them. I should be able to get that back in the Fall and Summer semesters (WAHOO!).

It will also be nice not to have to call my parents and bug the bejesus out of them for my financial aid information.

In summary, that means that I’ll be graduating Fall of 2011 instead of summer or something like that.

ETA: Old post is old. I have more thoughts on this that I’ll post later.

Today, I got a lot of research accomplished. Apparently I am currently unable to sit at a computer to do my research with online resources. I need physical books or paper, so that I can lie in bed and outline, take notes, whatever. I work best in non-digital formats. I become absorbed by physical ones.

I need to get ink for my printer.

I will recycle paper to make up for all the print outs that I’m going to have to make.

I just realized that as facebook became more complicated, my grades went down. I thnk that I need television for entertainment purposes, because the internet is too consuming.

I’m getting cable, as soon as I get a roommate.

I did it elsewhere, but here will do. I overhead a radio interview with P. Diddy. The DJ mentioned that Diddy has so much that he has to accomplish each day, and he asked him how he does it. Diddy responded that he makes a to-do list with all the things he needs to do that day. When he wakes up in the morning, he sets forth to accomplish as much of it as he can.

At the beginning of the semester, I kept a to-do list for each day. I stopped when I stopped going to see my counselor, and almost immediately, my progress faultered.

From now on, I most definitely will be making and keeping to-do lists. For everyday, and following it.

A friend of mine and her husband are supposed to be moving in with me pretty soon here. It’s exciting, but I hope she makes up her mind and starts to initiate action soon. Them moving in will resolve a lot of loose ends that I have and enable me to do a lot more. Which sounds contradictory, having to share your space with others, but at the same time it will benefit me financially and probably mentally to have someone around and living here too. I’m going to be free on Saturday, to help her move in and stuff, so I need to let her know that. I’m planning on going out with friends, and I work tomorrow.

On top of my exams.

I want to write more, but it’s late (note: it was 1:00 am) and I’m out of room on this sheet of paper almost. But I’m proud of myself for journaling.

Last thing before I sleep: I am currently a student, and I need to focus on that.

So since I’ve been out on my own, I’ve had to take out a payday loan or two, here or there. I’ve used them in emergencies, and I’ve always paid them off on time and as scheduled – something that you have to remember when you take out any loan. After a very unfortunate situation with a roommate in Michigan, where I come from, my credit got shot to pieces.  I didn’t save up enough money before I moved almost a thousand miles without a job offer pending, and so I found myself needing a loan, but being unable to get things like a credit card or even a simple loan from a bank.

At Vjeranpas.com, they offer a variety of information on different Cash Advance Loans, and the blog has a very easy to use format, clean. There is lots of information available on the different pages, including tips on how to compare different types of loans, fast payday loans, no credit check payday loans, and No fax payday loans. There is a link on the front page that will take you to an application for a payday loan (which says that the online loan process will take an hour), but I implore you to take time to explore all of the information that the website has on payday loans.

Making a choice to take out a payday loan is not light. Most payday loans have a very high interest rate, but at the blog, they give you tools and resources to compare the different rates at different payday loan resources. All in all, I think the blog is nice and informative, though the site itself might benefit from a better layout. The info on the page is almost hidden, and if they had an article style display at the top showing the different articles that they’ve written, with highlights, it would benefit immensely.

Disclosure Statement: This post is a sponsored review/post that I am receiving compensation to write.

Last week I ate random things without abandon, including the entirety of a chocolate cherry no-bake cheesecake by my lonesome. Not proud of that, but I am proud of the 2.5 miles I ran on Tuesday.

Time to shape back up.

Last week I ate random things without abandon, including the entirety of a chocolate cherry no-bake cheesecake by my lonesome. Not proud of that, but I am proud of the 2.5 miles I ran on Tuesday.

Time to shape back up.