Took some damage today, emotionally. Instead of studying for my exam, I’m busy cleaning my apartment and building it into a kind of cocoon. Means I won’t be fuddling with facebook and will only be logging journal entries. I decided yesterday that I’m a butterfly (metaphorically) that never got the experience of being a caterpillar. Decided I’m going to try to figure out on what I missed out of during metamorphosis.
Whenever I feel upset by something, I tend to withdraw into myself, sometimes even blaming myself. I tend to take the blame on myself and assume that something’s wrong with me, even when I know (consciously) that there isn’t. Hopefully it doesn’t last too long, but I plan on spending every spare hour in the gym or working on something to perfect myself. Right now I’m obsessing over flaws. Counterproductive a little, maybe. I don’t know.
In fitness related details, I got new shoes (I’ll take pics of them) for the gym and for running, and I got two new tops that I look awesome in. I still need to pick a Halloween costume and shoot the Tearyne in a Swimsuit video for this month, though I honestly think it’s more fun to do “Tearyne in her Halloween Costume”, what with it being October and all. What do you think?