Yet Tearyne Is Ambitious…

Today a bunch of assignments for writing about foods for the holiday popped up on a site that I write for. I’m so pumped! I love to write about food. Guess I’ll be busy this afternoon. =] And weekend! I could finally give let go of “How to build a flatscreen TV”, haha.

In fitness related news, I bruised the snot out of my hamstrings on Wednesday in my Pilates class… I think it’s related to the fact that I forgot to eat breakfast, and my body just wasn’t ready or fueled for exercise. Ouch. Was hobbling around all day yesterday.

I have finally started what will hopefully be my last evaluation and goal planning session for myself — at least for a long time going. I’ve come to realize that my future is happening, right now, and that before I can tackle it I need to have a true, deep understanding of myself. Some of my current, more personal circumstances have helped me to realize that I need to start getting focused on doing me.

I’ve always done a few goal planning things here and there. Most of the time it’s been effective, but over the last two years, it’s rarely been me-centric. It’s been an us-centric thing. I need to be the most important person in my world right now. It’s a little scary slash terrifying, looking so deep into oneself, but at the same time it’s exhilirating and exciting; who exactly is it that I will find in there? I know her, but at the same time, I don’t feel like I’ve put much into developing her.

Another part of this new situation has me seriously reconsidering married life. It’s made me realize — what is it I want to, HAVE TO do before I become someone’s wife? Toward the terminal part of my last relationship, I was thinking about this, but now I’ve come to terms with the fact that there are some things that I feel like I HAVE to do before I get married. That I want to get done. The beauty of the situation is that it’s crazy-liberating — like I can finally get around to me.

I believe that I can only be a good life partner to whomever is my other half if I am a fully functioning, whole person. It is a journey that I have to fulfill myself, because it involves an intimate understanding of myself. I cannot complete the other things that I want in life — success in marriage, success in business, etc., without this. It will take a full understanding of myself and taking steps to realize my skills before I can set forward into my dreams and ambitions.

MY dreams and ambitions. God, it feels good to say that after spending two years planning someone else’s life for him.

I have finally started what will hopefully be my last evaluation and goal planning session for myself — at least for a long time going. I’ve come to realize that my future is happening, right now, and that before I can tackle it I need to have a true, deep understanding of myself. Some of my current, more personal circumstances have helped me to realize that I need to start getting focused on doing me.

I’ve always done a few goal planning things here and there. Most of the time it’s been effective, but over the last two years, it’s rarely been me-centric. It’s been an us-centric thing. I need to be the most important person in my world right now. It’s a little scary slash terrifying, looking so deep into oneself, but at the same time it’s exhilirating and exciting; who exactly is it that I will find in there? I know her, but at the same time, I don’t feel like I’ve put much into developing her.

Another part of this new situation has me seriously reconsidering married life. It’s made me realize — what is it I want to, HAVE TO do before I become someone’s wife? Toward the terminal part of my last relationship, I was thinking about this, but now I’ve come to terms with the fact that there are some things that I feel like I HAVE to do before I get married. That I want to get done. The beauty of the situation is that it’s crazy-liberating — like I can finally get around to me.

I believe that I can only be a good life partner to whomever is my other half if I am a fully functioning, whole person. It is a journey that I have to fulfill myself, because it involves an intimate understanding of myself. I cannot complete the other things that I want in life — success in marriage, success in business, etc., without this. It will take a full understanding of myself and taking steps to realize my skills before I can set forward into my dreams and ambitions.

MY dreams and ambitions. God, it feels good to say that after spending two years planning someone else’s life for him.

I posted this to another website before I realized that the challenge I was trying to join was closed. Figured I’d save it; it’s worth keeping track of my goals and what I do to beat the weight. I’ll do my measurements later, but I’m 5’10″ and 189 pounds. I’ve got a youtube channel that I update to, as well as a workout blog. I’m a HUGE proponent of clean eating, so I’ll share my recipes as well. =] Sweets are the thing that usually catch me up.

Because I understand that between exercises your body needs rest and time to rebuild and build muscle, I only work out 4 times a week, 5 times at maximum. I’m also in a Pilates class on Monday and Wednesdays. I need to lose 25 pounds of fat by February to have a hope in a Ms. Fitness Qualifier in February… Signed up for a personal training session in two weeks, hopefully, and I’ve got six pounds to lose by October 31.

I posted this to another website before I realized that the challenge I was trying to join was closed. Figured I’d save it; it’s worth keeping track of my goals and what I do to beat the weight. I’ll do my measurements later, but I’m 5’10″ and 189 pounds. I’ve got a youtube channel that I update to, as well as a workout blog. I’m a HUGE proponent of clean eating, so I’ll share my recipes as well. =] Sweets are the thing that usually catch me up.

Because I understand that between exercises your body needs rest and time to rebuild and build muscle, I only work out 4 times a week, 5 times at maximum. I’m also in a Pilates class on Monday and Wednesdays. I need to lose 25 pounds of fat by February to have a hope in a Ms. Fitness Qualifier in February… Signed up for a personal training session in two weeks, hopefully, and I’ve got six pounds to lose by October 31.

My fitness testing went swimmingly yesterday. Apparently I am down to 189.0 pounds. Awesome.

I started CoffeeFemme.net a few days back, too. It’s a sub-project of mine, where most of my focus, really, is going to be on health, healthy eating, and fitness in the black community, but it’s really much, much bigger than that. Stay tuned.

My fitness testing went swimmingly yesterday. Apparently I am down to 189.0 pounds. Awesome.

I started CoffeeFemme.net a few days back, too. It’s a sub-project of mine, where most of my focus, really, is going to be on health, healthy eating, and fitness in the black community, but it’s really much, much bigger than that. Stay tuned.

I’ve been skipping going to the gym for the last week, for a variety of reasons, among them drama. I’ve learned that if you part ways with a man for being incompetent, it’s highly unlikely that he’ll stop being incompetent anytime soon. However, I just got through with 15 minutes of high intensity cardio intervals on the eliptical, so I’m pretty proud of myself for at least getting in that. I’m also fairly tired now. I am trying to decide which muscles to work but I… really don’t feel like it. I’ll put together a training program for myself tonight and do it tomorrow…

I’ve been skipping going to the gym for the last week, for a variety of reasons, among them drama. I’ve learned that if you part ways with a man for being incompetent, it’s highly unlikely that he’ll stop being incompetent anytime soon. However, I just got through with 15 minutes of high intensity cardio intervals on the eliptical, so I’m pretty proud of myself for at least getting in that. I’m also fairly tired now. I am trying to decide which muscles to work but I… really don’t feel like it. I’ll put together a training program for myself tonight and do it tomorrow…